I just "celebrated" my 6th month LID anniversary with a little lump in my throat. Last year when I started my adoption, the referrals were taking 6 months or so.... you know the rest of that story..... SO as each monumental holiday passed through 2005, I would say " Next year at Halloween, I will have Tate..... Thanksgiving, Christmas... blah blah...."Driving yesterday, I passed by families heading for the STATE FAIR..... towards smelly pigs and cows.... Bleating sheep, ugly poultry and CROWDS... OH the CROWDS!!!!
NOISY. STICKY. HOT.
Never in a million years would you find me in the likes of that place.... Blairing Country Music. Amateur Photography and Artwork. Tacky crocket doilies in Ungodly colors. SHEESH!!! I pity these POOR FOOLS. Then as I passed these families I saw the children's faces.... beaming in anticipation of seeing, smelling, hearing and touching... To experience the STATE FAIR!!! Then my heart, people, my shriveled dried up heart started beating and swelling... I will come.... I will bring.... AND I will LOVE..... sharing all this Americana with Tate.
BEAMING. ANTICIPATING. EXCITED.
Will be on the face of my very own ........
BEAUTIFUL. BELOVED. TATE.
And so I say...."NEXT YEAR"
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I know it isn't very comforting at the moment, but same thing happened with me last year with our beloved Topsfield Fair. Kept thinking the same things: "this year Ruby will be home & I'll take her to the fair, I'll take her trick-or-treating, I'll celebrate Thanksgiving with all my family around our 12' table..." .
Only, not so much. I missed all those things because of my wait. Only this year will I FINALLY be able to take her to the fair, hold her little hand as we go door to door in search of sweets, and finally, this year I can sit with my daughter around our family table & enjoy a thanksgiving meal as a whole family, Ruby & all.
Sweetie, I know it sucks but I promise you, your turn will come... and Tate is going to steal everyone's heart! *HUGS*
We love you!
-Amy & Ruby Cate
Hey! I love the state fair...Good people watching! You'll catch me there every year with or without a kid! See you there next year. ;)
Tiffany
Yeah, the Minnesota State Fair is HUGE here. I mean really BIG. They call it the "Great Minnesota Get Together." But in six years I haven't gone. And people think I'm a freak. "You HAVEN'T GONE TO THE FAIR?" (Gasp!) Can't stand crowds. But I am looking forward to going with my little one!
Those time markers and events are so hard...and here we are about to hit a whole bunch of them with the holidays coming up. Hang in there & lets all lean on each other...
I love the state fair! It may be hot, smelly, and loud, but it is also a place where children come to show off all of their hard work for their 4H projects. It is where moms and grandmas come to show off their prized pickels, pies, canned goods, or sewing project. It is also a place to get the BEST roasted corn, funnel cake, and ice cold lemonade.
Isn't is funny how we all view life diffently. You and Tate will LOVE the fair next year.
Funny how we never thought we would look forward to a day we could spend in the sticky heat smelling pig poop.
I say bring it on because our daughter's will be loving it.
I know how it feels. I've said this will be 'my last 4th of July, this will be my last Mother's Day', etc. without my girl. (sigh)
We WILL get there and be oh, so happy to pet a stinky goat on the nose for it!
Cute post. Made me smile when you said "your shriveled dried up heart" reminded me of the Grinch for some reason. When he became nice in the end. Weird.
I LOVE the fair! I can hardly wait to take Jillian. Someday. I'm not even going to try and figure out when that will be...
Your post sounds oh so familiar. I went back and read my post about attending the Canadian National Exhibition last year. My final line was about taking Hannah in the summer of 2006. Sadly now it won't even be in the summer of 2007. But...by 2008 we'll be there and you'll be at your fair!
Woohoo...bring on the noise, heat and stickiness....we're going to the fair!
I have gone through the same thing, oh'...by this Christmas, next New Year, next Mother's Day, Fathers Day...on and on and on....
Happy 6 month LID, I'm right there with ya.
I HATE FAIRS! Never even thought of that anniversary.
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