Sunday, April 01, 2007

ANXIOUS

I have been just a bit anxious this past week..... I am not sure what it is. Maybe it is the thought of the unknown anticipated referrals? Whatever it is, it is driving ME crazy, and I am sure ANYONE who is around me crazy. I am so flighty in my action and thoughts. I cannot keep on subject on any conversation and have total words blank from my mind. Case in point. The other day I am starving. So I pop something into the microwave. The phones rings and I start talking, nonesense I am sure, still have that starving pang and snack instead. Next day I am starving (again) got to the microwave to heat up something and discover what I had left in the microwave from yesterday's starving episode. So I am having major memory and food issues.....

Have I share with you the worries I have with what to feed Tate??? How often? How much? Nutrition?? What babies cannot eat? Formula after 12 months? Bottle vs sippy cup. I just bought this book......





Yesterday I was perusing blogs and came across this one. The posting was about the stork flying and landing on Monday or Tuesday. I kid you not, my heart started pounding out of my chest, I literally lost my breath. I am so very anxious about this cause I feel magic is in the air and I really feel that I am running out of time to get ready for Tate.





I have been obsessing about getting organized and ready for Tate. I only need to get two more pictures for the "Who Loves Baby" book to send to Tate in her care package. I need to get to my brother's house and take of him and my sister-in-law and another of their kiddos. These are the people that Tate will be meeting and hanging with all her life. Just the little Chinese character names and it will be done. I have also decided what to send the nannies and what blanket and bear I will send. I plan on getting my questions for the director/foster parents all ready set aside.

I will say that I have been drinking a lot of java today. Had a friend take me to St*rbucks today for my birthday. On my VENTI cup was this thing written called "The Way I See It #203". I think it is thoughts that customer submit and are place on the cups... Normally I would not have even looked, today for some reason I did.




"I wish couples who desperately take every means to conceive a child would realize that adoption is a wonderful alternative. A child who becomes your child through adoption completes a family. Just as when you commit to your spouse or partner there are no biological ties yet a family was formed. This child enters a family the same way! It is not blood and flesh that forms a family, but the heart."





I think that for some reason finding this is timely.







On a funny note, when I was buying that pink polka-dot bikini the other day I mentioned to the sales lady that "Gymboree is like crack to mommas". She looked at me and said "and for grandmas, too". Poor Poor Tate. Not only will she have to deal with me as a Caucasian mom, but people will think I am her Grandma!!!!
Heaven save us!!!







For all the waiting families who will be expecting this time around.... Congrats!!! I cannot wait to see and the amazingly beautiful babies and take joy in the making of a new family unit.....

5 comments:

Sarah's proud Mama said...

I just wanted to give you my 2 cents about the bottle...We met Sarah 4 days after her first birthday. We decided to not follow our pediatrician's advice to ween her from the bottle totally. We only gave her 2/day at nap time and bed time, and held her on our laps and gave her some serious eye contact while she drank the bottle. It really helped us with the bonding and attachment process. I adored those times of just holding her and staring into those dark, beautiful, deep eyes. I think it's definitely a must if Tate is still on the bottle.
Just my comment from the peanut gallery! :)
Robin

Jewels of My Heart said...

Sounds like you are quite normal to me.... teehee it only get's crazier. Hannah is almost 17 months and she still gets two bottles of milk now not formula a day... it is a sweet time for us and neither of us are ready for it to end... we will know when it is right.
The Gyboree girl is a stoodge.... you do not look like Tate's grandma.... people are just silly.
God's speed
Daleea

Samantha said...

Now I feel really bad! I was totally caught up in all the rumors! Evidentally the package must have been SN referrals and TA's. I am so sorry I got your hopes up and it didn't work out! I guess it will just happen when it happens. I have decided that another day or two or a couple of weeks really isn't going to make that big a difference in the long run.

Andrea said...

No advice here. I am hoping to learn from you!! As for the Gymboree quip, you would be one young looking grandma! Next time I see you, I will have to tell you about the "young parents" I saw at the Autorama!

Dawn, Brian & Guinness said...

OMG!! That "saying" on the Starbucks cup is way too true!!!

I loved your popcorn story too. The other day, I got a bowl of ice cream and accidentally left the container out and then went to bed. I woke up to a real mess the next day!!!

~Dawn