Tuesday, January 06, 2009

"THERE IS SUNSHINE IN MY SOUL TODAY"

Do you know that feeling deep in your heart and soul. The nagging what is up feeling. The feeling that I cannot place a finger on it feeling. That's me... I am right there. Kind of like a coal burning deep within. A happy coal, that is. Underlining this happen feeling is kind of like a panic coal. HAPPY PANIC coal...... Happy because soon it will be my turn to become a Momma...... something I have wanted to be ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE. Panic because I am thinking WHAT AM I DOING????

HAPPY coal I will embrace.... panic coal I will try to put out.

20 comments:

Jennie said...

Hoping for at least 6 days in the next batch!! You're almost there. Yay!! If your sunshine can melt snow, come on up to my house!

Julie said...

It's natural to be scared.

But you will be a NATURAL at being a Momma. Tate will be one lucky girl indeed due to that.

So very excited for you. Yippppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Ava's family said...

I've been walking on sunshine since the last batch came out!

I understand that scared feeling too, cuz I have it. It's natural. I think it's just the fear of the unknown for me.

Special K said...

You're so stinkin close!

I think it's completely normal to freak out a little. I do some days... and I'm still a ways off. I can't imagine how crazy I'll be when I'm as close as you are. LOL!

Joan said...

Lisa,
You are so amazing. You have a wonderful attitude and I can't wait for you to see Tate!

Shelley said...

Oh, it's going to be amazing Lisa. Come on Tate R Bug!

Catherine said...

What a wonderful, happy place to be! Your turn is SOON! I think your feelings are oh so normal. Butterflies of happiness!

laurel said...

You will be fine! It just takes love and a willingness to love. I think you have that.

Made in China said...

YAY! Wonderful post!!! Happy 2009!!!

kris said...

it's the best feeling I am sure- i can't wait to know what that is like!

Beverly said...

oh yeah that "what am I doing?" feeling is very familiar still.

Abby's Mom said...

Yay! You have hung in there so well! I can't wait to see little Tate in your arms :)

PIPO said...

Fire up that happy coal and let it shine! Your time is near and you're gonna be one great mama :0)

Kayce said...

You just make me smile! So excited for you!! I can't wait to see Miss Tate in your arms!

aredthread said...

Don't panic, Lisa! You've had SO much great practice with mothering, you're going to do a great job. :o)

Here's to 6 days in the next batch!

Tracy said...

Can you even begin to believe it's so close to your LID. WOW! Here's keeping the fingers crossed!

Cindy and Co. said...

My oldest is 11 and that panic coal still flares sometimes! Don't sweat it, you are going to be fine. I can't wait till Tate is home so I know your a bundle of nerves!

Kramer said...

I am getting so excited to see Tate. Since the day I became your secret pal and starting reading your blog I became so blessed to watch and follow your dream of becoming a mom, not just any mom but Tate's mom. I know that you are going to be amazing and that Tate is going to be the luckiest little girl to have you. It's not much longer now. I can't wait to see that little face, the one I thought of everytime I was out shopping for her! Hang in there Lisa!

Jewels of My Heart said...

This is so fun! I am so excited for you! Just so you know.... both of those coals are oh, so natural.... even after years the panic coal starts burning every once in a while. lol Then I just turn to God and remind myself that He has entrusted me with my precious children so surly He won't let me mess them up too much! LOL

KHM said...

Hey, glad you stopped by the blog.

Don't worry about the panic thing- just do your best to ignore it. It is a normal response to reality doing something great in your life. It will end in 20 years or so.