Friday, August 25, 2006

SO SAD....

So very very sad..... I have lost all hope in the CCAA. This month was going to be a golden month. It was a month that the CCAA was going to prove themselves as the shining star in the International Adoption Universe..... New offices, more hired help. MODERN AND EFFICENT!!!! Smooth, sleek, new..... What happened????

This is the selfish side of me talking.... What about me??? There are waiting families that see the end of the tunnel.. maybe next month, maybe the following month. With a LID of March 7 2006, it seems like there is no hope, no end, and tons of the unknown. DOUBT, loneliness, sorrow.....

On Monday, I will pick myself up, dust myself off, and start all over again as the JOY of friends get to gaze upon the face of their children. Until then, I will wallow in my sadness, acknowledge it, embrace it and eat chocolate.... BUT WILL MOVE ON.

I am working on the Referral baking that will best express my feelings......

So sad, so very very sad.

13 comments:

Donna & Joe said...

Lisa, I loved your comment on my blog about protesting by not eating Chinese food this weekend! You are too funny.

Hey, I wish I was there to enjoy your next batch of referral baking. Those chocolate chip coconut bars were delish!

Anonymous said...

I am right there with you Secret Pal. I am so sad to see the referral dates. On the flip side, I hope I have something to at least make you smile for a second. I have sent your August gift out this morning, a little late, but it is in the way. Tell Mesa to be watching for her delivery the beginning of the week.
Your Feb Secret Pal

Stephanie said...

Hey, at least you don't have an LID on May 18th like me! :)

Shannon S said...

Oh thank goodness for the referral baking!!! I need my fix quick! =)

Christi said...

I really believe that things will get better and the pace will pick up, it just has too. Hang in there!!

tracy said...

I'm right there with ya! This sucks!

Krista said...

Hey My LID is 6-14-06! I may be collecting Social Security before Mia comes home... at this rate!

This has been a hard week. With all the singles rumors flying around and the short batch of referrals. I'm just trying to hang in there. I keep telling myself... this to shall pass

Stacy said...

I know what you mean.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry, Lisa. The waiting is a killer. Believe me, I know. ;o)

Tana

Cindy said...

So sorry to hear you didn't get your referral. Hang in there Honey.

Tamara said...

I too am so sad about this last batch of referrals (especially since I havn't even gotten mine yet- humph.) What the heck is going on?

Sandy said...

Hey Lisa, your sadness is sooo understandable in this process where we have no control. We follow the guidelines, run all over getting the forms, wait, wait, wait, get forms re-done, and all we can be told is to have more patience. Hope you found some comfort through baking because knowing you, you will be dusting yourself off and right back in a good place soon. Those sad times are bound to happen, and then miraculously faith kicks back in again. Hoping you feel better today! (((HUGS))) to you and to precious Mesa.

Doris & Dan said...

It super sucks but we will all manage to get thru this. Esp. with som nummy baked goods!

Keep smilin!