Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I REALLY MUST SAY,

the hardest part of this wait for Tate is right now.

If you would have asked me one month ago what was the hardest thing I have done during this adoption, I would say without a doubt not knowing who she was. Where she was living, age, face.

Now I have a face to put on this wait. I examine the four pictures that are my treasure ... pictures of TATE'S FACE that shows me her sweet lips, the indention just under the nose. I see that little bud on the middle of her top lip. The sweet little bud that is so prevalent in newborns. I see the ever so slight droop on the top of her ears. The ears that I am dying to see. A mess of coal black hair.

I want to breathe in my baby, to nibble, snuggle, and adore.

Still so many questions.... All my information is from four months ago. How much has she grown and changed? Does she still have that brightness in her smiling eyes or has life in an orphanage changed that? Is she getting enough to eat? Tender loving care?

Word on the mean streets of IA (International Adoption) is that this Swine Flu scare will most likely put a 20-30 day or so stop to the TA (Travel Approval) for Tate. I had hoped to be traveling mid May. Not sure when I will be traveling.

Prayers to the heavens will be going out from many homes worldwide.

13 comments:

Marmee said...

We had to cancel our trip to China this coming Friday. Hubby has a cold and we're afraid he'll end up in quarantine hell. Good luck! I hope things settle down by the time you get TA.

mama hen said...

The time between referral and travel was the hardest for me too - for my second -- but especially my first daughter. Once I had that picture, my girls became real people to me -- not just abstract concepts. Every moment until we were finally united was painful. Even though I had already missed months and months of their young lives -- the days I continued to miss waiting to travel were excruciating.

Hang in there.

Catherine said...

Hugs and prayers for you dear friend and your precious little Tate. May you meet her soon.

Luna said...

I hope it will only be 20-30 day delay. I'm scared to death it's going to be much more. You're right....THIS for me has been the hardest part of the wait. I'm praying we will bring our girls home very soon. *Hugs*

Suzie said...

Praying that this nasty rumor is not true and that TA's will be here soon!

Sara said...

Hang in there, the time between referral and travel was the hardest for me too. Keeping my fingers crossed that these rumours are NOT true!!

Hang on little Tate, mommy is coming as soon as she can!

kris said...

Did you read the letter from the CCAA? It's posted on RQ now, and it's a lot more encouraging than I expected. I understand it to mean that CCAA is asking agencies to "counsel" their clients and if clients choose to delay travel,their TA's will be extended. They mention nothing about referrals or stopping them. Go and read if you haven't :O)

Did your agency say something different? Because the letter is pretty specific.

Jboo said...

I know this is such a hard time -- waiting and wondering. Keeping you and your little one and so many others in my prayers.

Janet

Shelley said...

Sending you a prayer that you travel soon. I remember how excrutiating this part is. Soon!

LiLi said...

oh my i was wondering if the flu would affect ta. my heart goes out to u and tate!

Briana's Mom said...

I am saying prayers for you! Hope you don't have to wait too much longer to meet your daughter!

Kayce said...

Lots of prayer here. Hugs my friend.

Cindy said...

That's frustrating they make you wait so long. I don't understand it, but the wait is almost over.